Living with MS can affect your feelings, so it's not unusual to experience a range of powerful emotions around your MS, especially at the time of diagnosis, and it may take you time to come to terms with MS being part of your life. However, due to the changing nature of MS, there may also be other points in your life with the condition where you find yourself living with challenging feelings.
People who have lived with MS for a while often say that, although they have MS, MS does not have them. They see MS as only one thing about them and not the defining thing. These can be useful thoughts as you live your life with MS.
Strong feelings of all kinds are part of a normal response to an MS diagnosis or a change in your MS. Here are some ideas that may help you deal with them, and some people you can talk to.
Feelings at diagnosis
Making Sense of MS: In this short film we talk to people about how they felt after being diagnosed with MS.
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Emotional reactions to diagnosis
Getting an initial diagnosis of MS, or being told that your diagnosis has changed from relapsing to progressive MS can provoke strong emotions. You may feel angry, anxious or upset. You might feel relieved, especially if you've spent a long time trying to find out the reason for what you've been experiencing. You may be in shock, especially if the onset of your symptoms was very sudden and you were diagnosed almost immediately. You may feel numb, like it's unreal or happening to someone else. You may find you experience a complete lack of emotion.
Whatever you feel, it's OK. There is no correct way to react to the news of diagnosis.
Many people say that adjusting to the diagnosis of a long-term condition, such as MS, is similar to the grieving process after a bereavement. During this process there are five stages of grief.
- Denying that something has happened – this allows you to isolate yourself from the cause of your pain and buffers you from the initial shock.
- Feeling angry – anger may be directed at other people or at inanimate objects, even though they're not to blame.
- Bargaining – this is when you look for a way to gain a sense of control and postpone the sadness. In this stage it's common to think about the 'What ifs?' such as "If only I had gone to the doctor sooner" or "What if I'd got a second opinion".
- Depression or low mood – this is the stage where you might try and process and reflect upon your loss.
- Acceptance – when you become calmer and, though not necessarily happy, you feel more able to move on with your life.
The stages of grief don't occur in a set order. It's common to go back and forth between stages and you may not experience them all. Your grief may not go away completely or it may resurface from time to time. This is completely normal.
Although the grief analogy is a reasonable one, there is one crucial difference. Unlike losing a loved one, being diagnosed with a condition like MS is not a one-time event. The unpredictable nature of MS can act as an unwelcome reminder of the changes, or losses, it has led to in your life. Although this can make it more difficult to work through your emotions, it doesn’t mean you can’t process your feelings and get to a better place. You might find it helpful to talk about the changes, any sense of loss, or the impact of your feelings with someone you trust.
Dealing with symptoms
Living with the symptoms of MS can be very draining, both physically and emotionally. Fatigue, pain, depression and anxiety can leave you feeling very fragile. If you're not sleeping well, or are feeling under pressure, that can make things seem even more difficult. Often with MS your symptoms can vary from one day to another, which can take some getting used to; as can new or worsening symptoms.
It can be good to reflect on what might be causing you to feel emotional and whether there's anything you can do to improve things. Is there a particular symptom that's challenging you? Could you look at whether it could be better managed by starting or changing medication, or learning some management or relaxation techniques? Would improving your bedtime routine give you a better chance of a good night's sleep? Are there things you can try yourself or is it time to ask for help from a health professional?
I'm concerned about the impact on my family
You may be concerned about the impact of your MS on those closest to you, such as a partner, children, siblings or parents, especially if you feel that MS is intruding in your relationships or intimate moments. MS might mean you see yourself, or your partner, in a different light – especially if your roles within the relationship change. You may worry that some symptoms, such as fatigue, pain or continence issues, may impact on these relationships.
Keeping the communication channels open and being honest about how you feel and how MS is affecting you at any given time can be helpful. As can emphasising the unpredictable nature of MS, which might mean you can't always follow through on a promise to do something at a particular time. It's also good to encourage your family to be open with you about their own worries and frustrations.
However, this isn't always as easy as it sounds. These types of conversation can be tough for everyone involved. Sometimes it can be helpful to talk to someone outside the family to get an independent view. This could be a good friend, another person with MS or a health professional.
I'm feeling apprehensive about my future
You may be apprehensive about the future and what MS may mean for you in the longer term. This is a natural and common response to diagnosis or when things change. Perhaps you've had an episode of new or worsening symptoms, had a relapse, or a medication is no longer helping, and that's got you thinking more about what the future may hold. Learning to live with the unpredictable nature of MS, and the uncertainty this can bring can be challenging. You might be worried about starting or adding to your family, or a particular concern for many people is what MS might mean for your career.
Life is never completely predictable, there are always unexpected or unwelcome hurdles thrown into the mix. However, significant events or changes can highlight uncertainties. Try not to focus too much on what might happen or assume that MS will have an impact on a particular aspect of your life. Try to use this time and energy in a more positive way and focus on the things that are important to you in the here and now.
If you are considering making changes to your life, you might like to read our information on life choices.
Is MS affecting how you feel about yourself?
Making Sesne of MS: In this short film we ask people if a diagnosis with MS has affected how they feel about themselves.
I'm feeling down or anxious
Feeling down or anxious can happen for many reasons, whether this is dealing with your diagnosis, worrying about symptoms or the sheer unpredictability of living with MS. However, depression and anxiety can be symptoms of MS in their own right if an MS lesion is present in an area of the brain associated with mood.
Low mood, depression or anxiety can come on suddenly or creep up on you bit by bit without you realising. Talking things through with family, friends or in online or face-to-face support groups can help with low mood. However, if you continue to feel down or it feels like things are escalating, consider seeking professional advice about treatment options, such as counselling or medication, from your MS nurse or GP.
I'm not thinking straight
Not thinking clearly is common in MS. This might be due to the shock of your diagnosis, being confused about the different treatment options or simply being overburdened by other things going on in your life. You may feel under pressure or not be sleeping well. If you're experiencing MS fatigue, which is an overwhelming feeling of mental and/or physical exhaustion out of all proportion to the task you've done, this can add to the issue.
Difficulties with slowed thinking, such as issues with memory, concentration or attention span, can also be symptoms of MS. They're collectively known as cognitive problems. Like fatigue, cognitive issues can affect how you feel so it's helpful to seek support from your MS team if needed.
Looking after your general health can help you keep a clear mind. Small changes to your lifestyle, such as eating more healthily, incorporating some exercise into your day and learning relaxation techniques such as breathing exercises or meditation to help you cope if you're feeling under pressure, can all be beneficial.
I don't see myself in the same way
How you see yourself as a person is probably intertwined with other factors which are important to you, such as your role within your family, your job or if you're particularly good at something, such as photography or a certain sport. If your life has to change, it can impact on your self-esteem and your sense of who you are can become lost or blurred.
You may feel a stronger sense of loss if your symptoms affect your ability to fulfil the roles which are most important to you. Physical symptoms may be more distressing if you're very active or have a very physical job, whereas if your job is mentally demanding or you enjoy activities that rely on brain power, then cognitive difficulties may upset you more.
Although your symptoms may be restricting you at the moment, bear in mind that this can change. They may resolve if they’ve happened as part of a relapse, or you may find a treatment that helps. You might find a way to manage symptoms, such as strategies to reduce fatigue, which means you can do the things which are important to you more easily. Or you might adapt and find an alternative way to carry out activities.
Only you know what’s most important to you. Try to find ways to reconnect with the roles and activities you valued before your diagnosis. This might be in a different way to before, so you might need to get creative – perhaps ask family or friends for ideas to help find ways to be yourself again!
What can I do to help myself if I'm struggling emotionally?
Look for the positives in your life
- Try to keep a sense of normality. Where possible, do the things you usually do and especially the things that you enjoy.
- Prioritise. Who, and what, is most important to you and your life? Focus your energy on them.
- Learn to say no. And don't beat yourself up afterwards! You don't have to do everything. Remember those priorities!
- Try something new. Take up a new hobby or challenge that you've always wanted to try – it can be good to have a new focus for your thoughts and something to look forward to.
- Reassure yourself that living with MS is a learning curve and that you're doing your best to manage your MS well.
Be kind to yourself
- Look after yourself and your body by eating more healthily, exercising sensibly, stopping smoking and avoiding drinking too much alcohol on a regular basis.
- Looking after your mind is important too. Practising relaxation techniques, mindfulness or meditation can be beneficial. Listen to soothing music or lose yourself in a good book. Whatever works best for you.
- Go outside. It could be for a gentle walk or run, or to simply sit and watch the world go by. Fresh air and connecting with the outdoors can help clear your head.
- Chill out. You're allowed to rest, relax, take a warm bath or pamper yourself, and just zone out sometimes.
- Don't be afraid to ask for, or accept offers of, support if you need it. Even if you're doing OK at the moment you can always let people know you'll get back to them if, and when, you need their support in the future.
- Set yourself realistic goals so you don't feel like you've failed if you try and take on too much.
These strategies can help you put worries to one side, even if it's only for an hour or two. Hopefully, they'll also leave you feeling better prepared to deal with life's challenges.
- Find ways to release any tension. Thump a cushion, turn up the music and sing along – or scream, keep a diary, write a blog, exercise or simply cry and let it all out.
- Share your feelings with someone you trust.
You might find that taking a problem solving approach can be helpful. Think about what's concerning you the most. Can you deal with it yourself or do you need someone else's support? If the issue seems too overwhelming, can you break it down and tackle it one bit at a time? Sometimes there simply isn't a solution to a problem. If this is the case, can you find a way to accept this and move on?
Podcast: Mental health and MS
In this podcast we discuss why mental health problems are more common in MS, Dr Anita Rose shares her top tips for taking care of your mental wellbeing, and Chris and Carla, who both live with MS, share their experiences.
Who can I talk to?
You know best how you prefer to deal with your feelings. You might feel that you need to keep strong and hide your emotions, but bottling up your feelings isn't always the best option. Is there someone you trust to share how you're feeling?
Often this will be a family member, or a friend and hopefully they'll be supportive. However, do bear in mind that they may also be dealing with their own emotions and adjusting to your diagnosis, or changes to your MS.
You may prefer to talk to someone who is more removed from your daily life, and find you can be more open and honest with people who aren't so close to you. You could talk to your MS nurse or GP about any concerns. They may suggest talking to a counsellor or neuropsychologist for a bit more support.
Alternatively, you may find it helpful to share your story with other people with MS, or read about their experiences to see if they're similar to your own and how they've dealt with their difficulties. There are online MS support groups, like the MS Trust Facebook group, or their are some groups that meet locally if you prefer to communicate face-to-face.
We often feel that we have to stay strong for others, but this can be more challenging if we're also trying to deal with our own rollercoaster of emotions. Remember you don't have to be a superhero who deals with everything perfectly.
It's good to live in the here and now and make the most of today. Make a few plans, pick up the phone, take action to make it happen. At the end of the day, you're a person who just happens to have MS – it's not your entire identity.
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